When someone has lived inside your mind for your entire adult life, are you ever able to really free yourself from them? What if you don't want the presence gone? Is it worth having it pop up every time you hear that one song, catch a snippet of that movie on cable, smell that perfume or incense that was an integral part of your life? What happens when everything is suddenly so intense that you want to cry, but can't? It can't be healthy to have such a powerful longing inhabit your brain for so long. But no matter how close I get, the tears never actually come. that can't be good. 

in vino veritas